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Jennifer Pedranti revealed in a new Real Housewives of Orange County clip that she felt “uneasy” doing “anything that resembles a new marriage and a second marriage”The reality star noted that she still carried “guilt” over her divorce from her divorce from Will Pedranti, with whom she shares five childrenIn the clip, she also noted that she “probably need to work” out her feelings on it all “a little bit”
Jennifer Pedranti is getting candid about her feelings ahead of her nuptials to Ryan Boyajian.
The Real Housewives of Orange County (RHOC) star, 48, opened up in a new clip from Bravo about why she felt “uncomfortable” with the surprise bridal luncheon Shannon Storms Beador hosted for her on the show.
“Here’s the thing: Shannon put a s—t-ton of work into that bridal shower, and I think Gina’s perspective was, ‘Jenn didn’t even appreciate it,’ ” she shared during a confessional . “I did appreciate it. It’s just that it was just an uncomfortable setting for me.”
Ryan Boyajian and Jennifer Pedranti.
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“I don’t like things… centered around me like that,” she added later on in the clip.
Jennifer went on to explain that doing “traditional” wedding things made her “uneasy” because of the “guilt” she’s carried after her divorce from Will Pendranti, with whom she shares five children, Harrison, Dawson, Greyson, Everleigh and Dominic.
“The whole wedding thing, like the traditional feeling of a wedding, makes me really uneasy,” she said. “I don’t think people realize how being divorced is like… for a long time (I wore) like a scarlet letter…”
“I didn’t leave my marriage in an up and up way,” she continued. “I can’t believe I’m a divorced person. I rocked my kids’ world. I feel like I’ve (worn) this guilt for so long.”
The reality star said those negative feelings have continued to live on — despite her and WIll’s divorce having been finalized in July 2024. She admitted that it is also something she needs to continue to work through.
“So to do anything that resembles a new marriage and a second marriage, it feels a little, I don’t know, I get uneasy with that,” Jennifer said.
“Like I went and tried on dresses with Katie and that was weird too,” she explained. “I felt very like a fraud, almost, putting on these wedding gowns and this veil. I don’t know how to describe that, and I don’t know what that is for me. And I probably need to work that out a little bit.”
Ryan Boyajian and Jennifer Pedranti in ‘The Real Housewives of Orange County’.
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Jennifer and Boyajian have been dating since September 2020. As they revealed on RHOC, the two met while she was still married. In April 2024, Boyajian popped the question while they were vacationing in the Bahamas.
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“We’re both super stoked and couldn’t be happier,” the RHOC star told PEOPLE at the time. “We always say that our love is a gift, and this just feels like the icing on the cake.”
“This is a magical time for us,” she added. “I really am the luckiest girl in the world.”
The Real Housewives of Orange County airs Thursdays at 9 p.m. ET/PT on Bravo.
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